I think. I think I have gotten through the hardest part. I seriously thought that the emotional roller coaster I was enduring was never going to end. But I believe it is finally getting there.
I have really dove into the photography stuff. I’ve entered into a few contests hoping that it can get me somewhere, and teach me that I’m not as bad at this as I think. I also upgraded by current equipment to help me better my skills and learn more about the whole aspect of it. It is a timely process and I’m still learning every time I go out there, but it is working slowly. I don’t know, what do you think?
Besides the photography stuff there hasn’t been much going on. I landed myself a second job doing consulting field work again which has been nice, but not ideally what I would like to be doing. I have been lazy about applying for the jobs I really want because I’m so tired of not hearing back. But I’ll never hear if I don’t apply in the first place, right? Yeah. So I’m trying to get myself to get my danged resume and cover letter out there so I can land myself the job that I really truly want to do and work in. But for now it’ll suffice and I’m ok with it. I’ll be traveling a ton for this field position so I’ll be out and about and flat out busy working my tail off really.
I’m also as single as they come.
I finally straightening everything out with certain men still in my life that I was either still pining over or flat out confused. It feels like a huge weight lifted off my shoulder because for a while I was in serious turmoil with myself over what to do and how to feel. But to have to live under my own microscope is something that is my own fault and I’m the only one that can change that. I have finally figured out what I want in a man, and in a relationship. It has taken a serious number of mistakes and more than enough tears shed, but it had to happen at some point right? I had to realize what I needed, wanted and deserved and I had to learn the hard way. I hate that it was hard, but like my title says, “I got through the hard part.”
Now is where I get to have some fun discovering more of who I am and who I want to be with. Not going to lie, there are still people from the past and present that I’m still thinking about but in reality, if they don’t seek me out it means they really don’t want to be spending the kind of time with me that I want to spend with them. So…their loss? Only time will tell.
That’s all for now. More 30 under 30 goals to be accomplished soon!